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Thoughts are funny things. One moment you could be thinking about a funny joke someone said the previous night and next you are treading on a world of highly emotional thoughts without so much as a blink of the eye. It is a miracle that I somehow keep sane with all that rushes in my mind but then again with such a masterpiece as the brain, I can only be humbled by what it has to deal with each day. Have you ever felt that if people found out what you thought, you could be possibly be 'hung'? Not in the sense where someone would place your neck in a noose and leave you to die but in a modern sense of lynching, condemned by the utmost scorn and uppity expressions that are plastered over their blackened moral masks. I guess its a pity we don't have the courage to be able to word out the thoughts in our mind for the fear of realising a reality that shouldn't be happening. Its like when people still refuse to believe in global warming (or that Liverpool is the best EPL team) that you understand that denial in itself is one of the largest obstacles and as long as they believe in that denial, there will be no moment of realisation - no moment of truth. I would say I wouldn't want to be once of those people but I know in my way, that I do cringe at saying things loud. Its the fear of the realisation that maybe people aren't true or that what you thought made you whole was actually missing all this time. But in writing this, I hope to have broken some of that denial down because this is probably a step in the right direction. It will come when one day I will probably be able to accept the truth as it is but till then, I will have to keep chipping away, tossing out the broken pieces, rearranging the ones which will last until I find myself in a place where I can accept.
It may take half a year, several years or a lifetime but if we are striving for something better than perhaps... it is something worth doing? I don't know. I can't answer these questions but I can try.
